This is a story from back in November of 2001 it is a regret letter I wrote my daughter Alyssa that is now 23yrs old and married with a beautiful family. I know now what I would of missed if this letter was true if I would of DIED in a drunk driving accident.
I’m writing you this letter to tell you how much I love you and always loved you even though I haven’t been the mother you probably thought a mother should be. I am so sorry I let you down so many times I promised you so much and I just let it all go. The bottle was more important because I only knew how to deal with my problems by drinking them away. I promised you when you were born that I would always be there for you, to talk, to listen and mom wasn’t and if I was I was always drunk or had an attitude and didn’t give a shit. Now I can’t be there at all because I am up in heaven looking down at you and your sister crying at my side. If I could just have 1 more chance it would be so different, Mom would be there for you emotionally, mentally and be your best friend. I love you both very much and PLEASE don’t be like me and throw your lives away like your Mother has. Be Strong and be Good you are beautiful girls and I am so Proud of you both.
Love You Both with All
Heart and Soul,
Love Your Mother
So I got my 1 more chance and got Clean and Sober on Aug. 4th, 2001 and I can say I am clean and sober today to be the mother I should of been back then. You can’t live in the past so go forward and I have and it has been AMAZING.